I can't say that I married young, I didn't I was 24. I can't say I had children young, I didn't I was 25. I can say that I was naive about real life. I married a kind loving man with an addiction to alcohol. I didn't know anything on that subject, I believed that he could stop if he wanted to. As time went by I realized that I was wrong. I didn't know where to get help, so life went on. He tried to stop many times but he kept going back and each time he went back a piece of my heart would die until there was no more love and trust left. 17 years and 4 children later I realized that nothing was going to change so I made the decision to end the marriage.
Sometimes we try to hold on for what we think is the right reasons I thought it was better for my children to have two parents, I was also afraid to be alone and not strong enough to survive. I was wrong on both counts, because all of us were unhappy and suffering and yes I found that I was strong and I could indeed take care of us! When I thought about it I was alone even when I was married.
My children witnesses too many discords, pain and unhappiness between me and their father, and for this I am sorry! That was 17 years ago and since then I've made my children my number 1 priority I tried to make right the wrongs in our life. They are all grown up now, but we're still very close, the bond of love between us is very strong and for that I'm very thankful. I can't say it was easy but it was worth it! I was there for my children every step of the way and still am, my rewards have been immeasurable my memories precious. My children have been there for me and still are. And for this I'm very grateful!
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